After the realization I found yesterday, that there is a new love waiting for me.
With a boy that I have already met.
I need some time to let that sink.
Perhaps, also as a preparation of what is coming.
And I have to say, the things that I have seen in my dreams, it will all be worth it.
However some questions did cross my mind.
Why not earlier?
Why is this now happening?
Was this all the plan from the beginning?
Perhaps I am carrying still some insecurities, to have this love with him.
But it is no wonder to me, that I am the first one to know this.
For the simple fact, that I am an introvert and need my time to get comfortable.
It doesn’t say that he isn’t.
To be honest, I don’t know actually if he is.
I don’t know him that well.
However I do know that his heart is in the right place.
But what I have come to understand, is that we all walk a different path.
Or at least, we don’t always need to follow the same road.
The important thing, is that we will be meeting.
To have this love started.
Although I don’t know how it will happen.
But I am less afraid, as I was a short while ago.
That is at laest what I feel.
It does mean the end of me being single.
I would welcome it, as I feel I am getting a bit sad that I am always alone.
And I believe this is the whole reason that I am getting this information about me and him.
That I am done being single.
One part is a sense of intuition and also just a logical form of action.
That this is now coming towards me.
Although the end is not always the destination.
It will be just the start of a new love journey.
How else can it be.
But with the knowledge that I have.
It means that I will need this time to get myself prepared.
To gather and investigate further with the right information.
To finish some things I need to do for my own health and being.
Just to know that I am ready for the sake of us together.
And it means I need to let him do, whatever he needs to be doing.
Something I don’t really want to know, although I have my opinion.
The only thing I can say, that it is just part of the process.
It is a trust that I am here speaking of.
To let things happen in it’s own way.
Because I don’t want things to come to early.
A delicate process I am respecting.
It needs to develop in it’s own time and grow to become what it should be.
To have a love for the world to see.