An experience I’d like to share, or just something that happened.
Actually I don’t really know.
I am still not so sure how to put it on paper.
And that just happens sometimes.
A vivid dream it felt to me, but I think it was more something close to a reality.
One that is out there.
About men that do what they want.
Except giving the love that you deserve.
The man that doesn’t love you.
Not that this is his job, perhaps even in the first place.
Nothing he is aware of, or think he should fulfill.
If at all.
Painful is how it feels.
It goes deep in your vessels, perhaps even your whole being.
A lack is to describe it, that goes to your brain even.
Just a reminder that this is something how you feel, or at least how it felt to me.
Because you can think about the love that is out there or think that is what you deserve to live.
A love where men make you their priority, spend time with you for your sake.
Comforting your needs and I am not even speaking about them making food for you, taking you out for dinner or paying for whatever you desire and never think will ever happen.
It is just a description of what some women think should be available to them.
Or at least what the mind of these women ought to believe.
Mostly after a relationship with a man that does what he wants, except loving them.
I don’t know if that is a crowd I belong to. however I don’t think I am.
And that is where I would like to leave it.
Because the story goes differently.
It is just a form of depression that is speaking, when these women are speaking about this.
This love they feel they deserve to have.
After having this kind of a relationship with a man that doesn’t love them and just does what he wants instead.
These women are being open to that kind of desire.
However it is not a realistic one, one that is sustainable.
At least not according to me.
I mean, there is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved and having this desire of a so-called love.
However it comes from the point of lack.
Something these women are seeing, perhaps even feeling.
Words they speak to themselves as a wish that this is what men have to give to them and have to notice somehow.
But the question is how will they ever?
They are only doing what they want and everything that belongs to that reach.
You can think for yourself if loving you is one of those things.
It makes sense when you think about it.
Because when you think of it, you understand that you are chasing a death horse.
Really.
Sorry to be this blunt.
I guess that’s just the only way to shake up your system.
So, it makes logical sense that they will never even get to that place.
Of what some women think they should be doing, that desire they feel should be fulfilled.
Whatever that might be.
However it is just what the cells of these women are shouting, but none of that is heard, from those men they want it from.
Just a harsh truth.
I guess.
I believe it shouldn’t become an objective for those women, trying to get this love they think they deserve.
Because whatever they are attracted to after that relationship, perhaps even during, where they felt they deserve to be loved. It will still remain a form of lack.
Or at least what I think.
I don’t know if I should go deeper into this topic and share more of my truth.
Because who am I? Honestly?
I believe that is the real question.
I can even hear you screaming it a little bit.
However you don’t have to.
It is just something you have been also questioning.
Since you can just feel I am right about it.
I am just a girl sharing what I am finding and I think this is what it is about.
The core of it is that these women are lacking something in themselves and that can truly be anything. Perhaps something for them to find out. Even.
Their mind and body is translating it to something where they think they are deserving of, to fill that emptiness from the inside.
And there is nothing sad about it.
It is just what it is.
To leave it there and then.
Congratulations, I guess.
You made it.
Because the real story is about these men, doing what they want.
Except loving you.
Just to acknowledge that they are doing that.
That is where I would like to shine the light on.
Because these men want all for themselves.
I am not saying it in a bad way, but that they are just doing what they want and that is more or less the end of it.
Because when we just say it the way it is. It will stay on the side where it belongs and doesn’t interfere with us. Leaves us alone, perhaps even forgets about us completely.
Isn’t that great?
I think yes and we can move forward with our life, the way it is meant to be.
Perhaps something you didn’t know yet, or something you just thought but didn’t believe in.
I am just here to give them this favor.
Perhaps even giving back to them what they deserve and want.
Nothing bad or that is causing any harm to them.
Just making known that there are these men out there that do whatever they want, except loving you.
To give them their identity and form of existence.
Doesn’t that sound lovely?
To me it does.
Because when we think about it like this.
The light will shine on the right things and places, for us to go in and outside.
Wherever that might be.
All those desires, those feelings of what you think is meant for you will disappear.
Send to a place outside of yourself, where it belongs and doesn’t bother you.
Where you don’t get a headache or are constantly thinking about it.
Searching for this something that perhaps always remains a mystery.
I believe it is a waste of time.
Although, I know you didn’t ask that kind of question.
It just gives a piece of mind, is what I am saying.
A release in the heartspace and opens up the chakras that are connected to it.
To balance out those deeper feelings and emotions.
Erasing the memories that are connected to it.
To forget about this lost love, where you felt you were missing out on everything you were in deservedness of.
To make space for a love you feel for yourself.