Although the information I am receiving spiritually is about someone I know.
The truth is that we are not together and I have to understand what I need to be doing, to be involved in the right way.
It is not that I am desperate or that I am trying to get involved, only because I have been receiving this kind of information.
In that sense, I am disconnecting and am open to understand what it is that I need in a relationship.
Apart from knowing it is him.
Because I do feel my time as my time being single is ending and that is a reality I want to work with and more important I can further built on.
In other words to have something stable.
And it is for this simple reason, if I don’t see anything from the information that I have been receiving.
What I am trying to say, is I don’t want to rely too much on it.
Because I want to have something that is real and not something that I feel or I have seen in a dream.
For the simple reason I can not prove or predict anything with it.
I just believe this is not how it works.
To see what will happen.
To have an outcome that is connected to me and not to him.
This makes it logic for me that I will be using the law of attraction.
To have something stable and grounded and not just built from a dream or vision.
Because the essence of the law of attraction is that you are not connected to anything.
Not binded to an outcome or any kind of information that I have been receiving.
The fact that I am receiving this information, is just for me to know I am spiritual and that my senses are high.
But it would be a bit sad, if this story would end in this way.
Just to say : When it comes to the law of attraction I need to disconnect from anything to understand and communicate in a way to say this is what I need.
Disconnecting to an outcome to have something with a specific person.
I hope this makes sense.
Because the law of attraction is changing the molecules of your being, for the benefit of receiving what you need or what it is that you want.
It is a give and take, that the law takes something that shouldn’t be there, to make space for what you need or want to be receiving.
So when it comes to what I want and need, maybe not even when it comes to a relationship.
However the following is something I am experiencing at the moment, or something I want to say goodbye to.
How appropiate since I am leaving.
Already before coming to Lisbon I had different encounters with some people, that were not the best for my health.
What I have learned, maybe even discovered, that some people are just not right.
However there is no way, that I can make it prevent from these people coming in my life.
For the simple fact there is still a sense of free will.
This makes it, that I have to protect myself.
Not to say that it is something bad, but it is more that it is taking a lot from me, because I always have to be sort of on my guard.
And I am just not feeling good about it.
I hope that you understand what I mean.
However my will is also free and underneath there is choice of what I can do.
With that said.
I have come now at a point in my life, that I am getting tired of it.
From these people interfering my life, doing the things with no added value, apart from wasting my time and taking my energy for no reason.
It is beyond my own power, that they do the things they do and there is nothing I can do about it really.
But as my will is free and I can choose what to do.
I believe that this problem can be solved, when I would be involved with someone who looks a bit scary and is also strong.
Not that I want something happening to them, but I think they can be manipulated by thinking it will.
I am not taking there free will, but just let them believe that they can not use it with me.
To sum up, I would give up a sense of being afraid and always being on my guard, to be with a partner that can protect me.
So what else I would like to exchange in return of something that I want and need?
I have come to know about myself, that I am a carrier of things.
Mainly energy, feelings and perhaps even emotions that don’t always belong to me.
Wouldn’t it be great if there is someone that can also carry things?
We would be the same, but just a bit different.
Perhaps not the softer things in life, but perhaps my luggage and bag.
That would be a welcome added value.
Because I am a just a fragile female and carrying all these things, also makes me tired.
But also to give him a sense of manhood, a way that I can protect him.
But to protect him in this softer way, we have to get together.
So I can show the world.
I hope this makes sense.
Because the thing is, that I need to have someone that is strong and capeable of carying some things, it is a way of protecting me and for the only practical reason that it will save some of my energy.
It will give me time to do other things.
Perhaps even spend my time with him.
I don’t know what would be in it for him, but maybe being this strong guy, it would boost his ego.
I don’t know if this person exists, but it would make my life a lot more easier.
And when I think more of it, there is really nothing I else I would wish.
Although the law of attraction is not so much about wishing but more grounded in what you want and need.
However I do feel some things are still open or unfinished so to speak.
To me, that is the beauty of the law of attraction to built further on, another time.
Whenever I am there and ready to adjust it or to make it complete.
Whatever is appropiate at that time.
By saying this, I feel I am at the end of writing down what it is that I would like to attract.
To say, all of this written, is something I would definitely sign.
In order for me to send it to where it belongs and should go.