Sometimes I just search things on the internet, because I have a wide interest.
Perhaps it is connected with me being a Sagittarius, that I am open to learning.
Lately I found out that is also a mechanism for me to raise my energy, or better to say fill up my battery.
I am speaking about searching things on the internet.
As convenient as it is.
It is just not that I want to know something specific.
However latetly, it involves a lot with love and sexuality.
The following is what I was reading :
‘Can Asexuals have sex?’
It was just something I was curious about, realizing I am far from this.
‘There are different forms of asexuality. For example, some asexuals can still have sex.
Also, some asexuals still feel romantic attraction to others, while others do not.
And some Asexuals feel no sexual desire’.
For some reason I read this, on Google’s page.
But it was something else that made this connected to my love journey.
It was this boy I was having contact with.
It wasn’t anything sexual, however I could feel some attraction.
There was a point where I was thinking about him a lot.
And I was questioning what it could be.
To see if there was something more than just something asexual.
Because I couldn’t even name it as something platonic.
As I see platonic, to be something you are friends with. Or some kind.
But we were not even that.
I am very single and I didn’t even know anything about his love status.
This is how our contact was.
It was pretty much nothing.
Not sexual, not anything.
But for sure there was a connection. Because I could feel that he was watching me and I did exactly the same thing. There was an equal form of nothing, of something we connected with.
Let me just call it like this.
But even when I was looking at his content, I could feel that I wasn’t sexually attracted to him.
Not even one single feeling or fantasy.
Perhaps I just need to wait for the future to unfold, because whatever I have learned already so far, is that love is patient.
Perhaps the same counts for sexuality?