Heartbreak - The Love Journey of Lakshmi

A love spell

Posted on 23/12/202423/12/2024 by Lakshmi

My vision when it comes to men is dark as days and I will tell you why.

They told me lies for their own sake.
Put blame on my shoulder, to avoid taking their responsibility.
Named me names and spread them for people to hear someone I wasn’t.
Went behind my back with another girl or tried to be with me while they were already involved.
Used me as a shield for their own protection.
Making me feel worthless by the words they used.
Touched me at places without my consent.
Walked away with my pride, to tell other people how great they were.
Then smiled at me, like nothing ever happened.

One punched me in the face, but I have to say he was gay.
The other thought it was ok to harass me, because he didn’t get his way.

Pieces of love

Posted on 11/12/202416/12/2024 by Lakshmi

But above all, expressing these pieces I see happening, writing it down, processing it for my mind to understand.

It is a way for me to continue on this road of love.
To see where this all is leading to.

Since that is the real journey.
Not knowing where you are going to, but to follow what we see and feel that is coming from inside.

The man that doesn’t love you

Posted on 04/12/202404/12/2024 by Lakshmi

A vivid dream it felt to me, but I think it was more something close to a reality.
One that is out there.

About men that do what they want.
Except giving the love that you deserve.

The man that doesn’t love you.

Not that this is his job, perhaps even in the first place.
Nothing he is aware of, or think he should fulfill.
If at all.

Love is to cry a river

Posted on 05/11/202405/11/2024 by Lakshmi

This encounter I had with him explains that we can grow as a person by not just following any river.
Rather to cry one and keep it close to our own.

Walking that path where we can see in the dark, rather than taking that leap, without understanding.

It is this sadness that could turn into something positive.
Where this death of what is not able to live, would find its place outside of myself.

For me to be open for this kind of love to happen one day.

Matters of the heart, happen when we least expect it

Posted on 31/10/202401/11/2024 by Lakshmi

Because when we did what we needed to do, learned those lessons that are out there for us to be picked up. We can leave that place for us to never return again.

For a new chapter to open up that is good for our heart.

Love is an open ending

Posted on 08/10/202414/10/2024 by Lakshmi

What I try to say is that we can do things differently regardless.

Built up in time and space.
To find what makes our heart thick, to see what makes us stronger from the inside and believe in what we didn’t even imagine was there.

And that sounds like love to me.

It is not the knowing of getting involved, starting a relationship or that we get our heart broken. However, it can all happen and is all a possibility.

But the essence of all of this is that we are on the go for something that we would never expect.

Doesn’t that sound lovely?
I think so at least.

It is becoming a quest, perhaps one with an opening ending.
Where the beat goes on and on.
An upward spiral where we just keep on going.

A source to live from, to find out, we are loved and accepted for who we are.

We find love when we settle and find home

Posted on 13/09/202413/09/2024 by Lakshmi

‘Let me be your lover’, was appropriate to think.
And I felt it.

So, then I didn’t understand that at one point he came in with her.
His wife now and mother of his child.
I don’t know if he will have more with her.

But ok, I didn’t speak to him for a few months when they came in together.
I understand things can happen.

However, I was surprised.
Nonetheless.

A true block of love

Posted on 02/09/202404/09/2024 by Lakshmi

However, the side note I want to make.

The older we get, the more experienced we are getting.
The more experiences we are having.

The good and ugly ones.
The ones we like to forget and perhaps hold some shame around.

But the truth is, with experience comes a package.
Something we can call age even.

Perhaps that is the reason why.
Why we are not able to find love at an older age.

Where hesitation, doubt and pain lead to a connection of love

Posted on 20/08/202420/08/2024 by Lakshmi

I find it weird to write about it.

And I didn’t even start yet.

I needed a minute to think about, if this was really something I wanted to write about at all.

That minute became a day, or two.
Perhaps even three.
At least it wasn’t that long ago.

And here I am.

Can an interest lead to love?

Posted on 11/08/202411/08/2024 by Lakshmi

But most of all, an interest brings you closer to yourself.
Where the good remains, for people to see who you truly are.