The Love Journey of Lakshmi
I believe time will tell itself if something wants to be found.
For science, humanity or anything else.
Just to not interfere in something we are not sure about.
Not sure if we can ever see or find.
It will save a lot of energy and time.
I guess.
And until then I will rest my head, cry just a little and keep on going with whatever I was doing already.
A tool to make you become who you are, by engaging the right way.
A new way of setting boundaries, without actually saying no, but just to keep silent.
As an example.
Because you are engaging with yourself.
Understanding who you are talking to or what you are doing.
Who you are spending your time with.
And then perhaps after that there are more people that will follow you on that social platform.
Sounds great to me.
The importance of knowing that we know where broken hearts go.
Perhaps even that place in our heart.
An emptiness to fill.
To heal and make it beat again.
For us to return to the part of where love can actually happen.
Already when I was 5 years old I said : ‘He is just not into you’.
Before there was ever a movie made with this title, or pronounced in Sex and in the City by Miranda.
One of the characters in the series.
Or actually I said. ‘He just likes her better’.
And to be real, I said it in Dutch.
‘Hij vind haar gewoon leuker’.
Something I told my best friend then.
“You are not your feelings, watch them with curiosity”
I see it as a piece of myself, as a human being.
You can even put it together as a part of me being a woman.
But as fragile and sensitive as that is.
It is not something that is locked or as the advertisements mention it as something to be unlocking.
Because it is not a lack, but an abundance that is residing in me.
The love for a city is something I am talking about in my story “Lisbon Love”.
A marketing trick or just something how it is?
I don’t know.
But what I do know, is that all involves a relation.
Not just with people or animals.
Perhaps even to have a relationship with a city.
It could be.
A light in the darkness, where I can not hide.
Lifting me up, where I can not do it myself.
Positivity where I feel energized.
Or can charge.
A place where we can meet in space and time.
In quantity and quality.
A hug, or just a kiss on the cheek.
Understanding when I am weak.
Learning and growing from each other.
Even when we don’t know how to do that.
To not go over each other boundaries.
Or at least listening to what the other has to say about it.
I guess you can call it emotional support.
To be the other side of the half.
Giving space to be.
Not letting me wait in the rain.
Opening the door, so I can go in.
Perhaps even a baby
One day
In my perception it was a long time ago.
However it wasn’t.
It is still a little bit of a dark place in myself.
And that is why I am feeling it like that.
That I am in tune with myself.
I think that is something I can confirm.
If it makes me a better person, I don’t know.
But I am happy that I have come to this kind of place, that I can share it with you.
I wasn’t even offended that he said that.
It felt more like a compliment.