It is where I feel safe again.
I guess that is the best emotion of all.
The Love Journey of Lakshmi
I am struggling with words.
Not able to speak properly.
Stuttering, forgetting what I was saying or just not knowing the words anymore.
And that does something to me.
I feel my heart opening up a little bit more.
When I write this down.
Just to say that a fight is not always a way to express our feelings.
It can also be a way to protect us from further harm.
I think in this way, I am less afraid to be involved again with someone.
Lets see, I guess.
On the topic of loneliness there is something else I’d like to mention.
Perhaps something in a more positive light.
Because when I think of being alone, or lonely.
To me it feels like a bad taste in my mouth.
The epiphany of the following story actually came from some of my own words.
‘I don’t miss you, in case you thought that’.
Then out of nothing I heard the door.
Someone was leaving the house.
I listened a bit more and heard footsteps going down the stairs.
Loneliness had just left my house.
Although I write perhaps sometimes a bit fictional, there is always a certain amount of reality and it is nothing out of this world.
Nothing we don’t know or we shouldn’t be ashamed of.
The thoughts I have and the feelings I am feeling.
The things I am saying and the things I am writing.
The point I’d like to make is that when it comes to the love stories I write, it comes from my point of view.
The things I see and experience.
If others see something in it for themselves, they can take it.
It is safe to do it like that.
If there is Love in After Life, is a difficult question if you ask me that.
I hope there is.
And somehow it makes sense to me.
In this story I give you my experiences and what I think about the topic of After Life.
I hope it is one you can live with.
And when that moment happens.
That he keeps standing on his two feet.
Not letting his ego get in his way.
I will say something like : ‘No, I am Lakshmi’.
Because that is the name I prefer to be called.
A moment in time, where something unexpected happened and I see all of sudden the future flashing before my eyes.
Me getting comfortable with myself.
With being different.
Perhaps even falling in love.