Lakshmi - The Love Journey of Lakshmi

The box of love

Posted on 23/10/202309/05/2024 by Lakshmi

I don’t know if it was the change of the weather, as it was raining a lot for a few days.

I was feeling somewhat depressed.

Perhaps it was this weather reflecting my mood.

Or just my own senses that were going underneath the surface to keep me dry from the rain.

The last 6 months there have been many changes and my birthday is coming up in a few months.

I will be 39.

Another year on the horizon and also time to close some chapters.
Perhaps I am just tired from all the things I have been experiencing.

Not able to pause and unwind.

Although I know it was for my own good, to grow and become.

The tiredness was a way my body made me notice, to keep me on track.
To prepare for something I am feeling intuitively.

If you want to love me, you have to slay my dragon

Posted on 20/10/202320/10/2023 by Lakshmi

The last days have been weird.

I really can’t put a different word to it.

It was a lost love that made this happen.

Or just a name that I am giving him.
One of many names that I called him.

And for some reason I am feeling a bit sad that this is a name that I have to add to this list of names.

Why I can’t really say.

Just a deeper feeling that something is unfinished.

3 reasons, you are still single

Posted on 07/09/202307/09/2024 by Lakshmi

‘Why are you single?’

This question had been popping up in different ways.

Only because it was showing at least 3 times it made me realize I needed to find an answer.

Could there be a system where love could live?

Posted on 25/08/202301/09/2023 by Lakshmi

It was something that kept my mind occupied.

And that I couldn’t find the words on how to say or even express it.

So, this is what I normally do whenever something like this happens.

I just sit and let the words speak by themselves. Letting my fingers be the extension of what it is that wants to be said on paper.
That is the space the words would come out right.

But the most important thing for me to do, is not just to sit but find the time that there is nothing else.

No need to finish. No boundary of time.
Just me sitting in a space filled with only that.

A story of my love life

Posted on 16/08/202312/09/2023 by Lakshmi

Lately there are a lot of men talking to me.

Conversations I am having, mainly because they want to say something.

I can’t really say that I am listening, but I am trying my best.
To at least be there.

Of course I am.

Most of the time.

Not to insinuate something different.
Just that I am not always there with my mind, because sometimes it is hard to follow what they are saying.

To have a love that I can call mine

Posted on 09/08/202328/10/2024 by Lakshmi

I told myself that I am letting go of what I am.

Perhaps just for this story, to understand better, what it is I am meaning.
Or that I need a little bit more healing.

It is my mind that has been going back to a couple of years ago.

Where I was in a relationship but didn’t have the strength to let go of that person.

Love doesn’t matters if you are who you are

Posted on 05/08/202305/08/2023 by Lakshmi

I don’t know if it is that I am getting comfortable with my age, however it is something that I am not identifying with.

Age, numbers, how it is we should behave.
I don’t know if this makes me look younger than I am.
I do have to say that I am young at heart, the same as my mind.

But it is the outside that counts, what it is that people perceive.
As that is the world that I have come to know. To be judged on the outside, so to speak.

Age has come to be in that box, of how we should be.