The last couple of days I have been sick.
A slow down of my body.
And many more things.
To give me time for things I needed to learn and know.
A time for introspection and insights for my being.
To understand and grow to become again healthy.
For a long time I thought I became sick, because of the sake of being sick.
Getting a cold, a fever, an infection of an immune system that is not that strong.
The main reasons of getting sick.
At least this was a long time my understanding.
Although I know and have experienced many more reasons to fall ill.
But I realized it is for this kind of reason, that my body wants to tell me some things.
What better way than my body to communicate with me and to say :
‘Slow down, I have something to say’.
The thoughts of how I could have missed certain things are no longer passing my mind.
So many things that we don’t know and are not aware of, is what I have come to conclude.
No reason to make it worse in a time of a low already.
I believe that is not the way to go.
And if so, that is just a sign to further heal.
In another way I am saying I am trusting the process.
Better to say trusting my body.
Giving the time it needs for me to understand what the message is.
Understanding what it wants to say.
To act accordingly and rise from what it is.
And afterwards, I share what it all means.
I believe that is the essence of my love journey.
It is not only an expression of the love for my body, but in essence a love for myself.
That I am not hard on myself, for being sick or missing the messages that want to be said.
Understanding the answers from within.
I have come to know, due to this sickness, that it is not only in a state of meditation where I find the messages in myself.
It is the realization that it is necessary to have this time, this time of ‘sickness’.
To grow further and become the person I am.