What is a love relationship?
I believe a question nobody really thinks about.
At least I never spent any second thinking of it.
Until it came my way.
When I was thinking about it for the first time I realized it is something we take for granted.
Perhaps that is a bit too harsh to say.
I mean, just that it is there, without really realizing what it means.
I think that is closer to reality.
The reason for me to start thinking about it, because of some things I had seen and heard.
Even experienced.
I also think it is somewhere where I am in my own journey of love.
I was thinking about how I came to this point.
How do we know when we want a relationship?
Does it mean that we are ready?
Or does it say something else?
About us or in general?
Just some questions that were passing through my mind.
A little bit above my head.
That is where I was seeing them.
Where it was clear for me that writing down was a better place.
I don’t know if you can call it journaling.
Writing down to clear the mind, release those words for its purpose to reveal.
For whatever knowledge it might bring.
Or something like it.
As I said, I don’t know.
It could be.
I am going a bit off track.
There is a lot when it comes to this question I have, or this thought.
I can’t say what it really is.
What is a love relationship?
It could be that I am at the doorstep of something new.
Perhaps even a relationship.
Whatever that might be or say.
The question started to rise a few months ago.
‘What is a love relationship?’
I was writing one of my stories, like any other day.
The sun was shining, however I was sitting inside.
I don’t know if it was the decor for me to understand, for this question to start having its life.
Coming down through my mind.
It stayed with me ever since.
I knew there was a story behind it or at least that question :
‘What is a love relationship?’
I was in a place, one I liked and visited many times.
Not just when the sun was shining.
It didn’t really matter for that question, I have to say.
Or what happened.
I believe it has happened many times already.
Not with them specifically.
It was just the first time I was seeing it.
Amazed I was at the same time and I thought about it for a long time.
There was a boy, talking with some girls.
It was more than flirting.
I couldn’t really say how to name it.
There was something going on for sure.
However his girlfriend was sitting at the table not far from this entourage.
I started to notice what happened, when she stood up and came standing next to him.
She started to talk, just in a normal way.
Nothing that excited really.
‘Letting those girls know he was taken’.
The flirting stopped, at least from the side of the guy.
I couldn’t tell if those girls were interested in the first place.
But the question that started to rise, within myself was :
‘What is a love relationship?’
They were in a relationship, however he was going very far with that kind of contact he was having with those girls. There were more than one and his girlfriend was just right there.
She noticed and I guess this is where I believe it happened before.
On and On.
So many more things were coming to the surface with me.
However, I don’t think it was meant for me to know.
I wasn’t in that kind of relationship with him and this is where the thoughts I had about, stopped.
The only thing remaining was this question, ‘What is a love relationship?’
Does it mean we can do whatever comes up inside of us?
Perhaps not even something we are in control of and should we think ahead before making that move?
Just some things I was thinking about.
It happened to me also when I was talking with some guy.
I was invited to a party.
I was there by myself, because I was single.
There were mainly couples there.
Perhaps it was for this reason that all of a sudden his girlfriend was standing next to him.
‘Making clear something’.
I don’t really know what it was.
Perhaps she wanted to let me know that he was taken.
He felt awkward when that happened.
I could see by the look on his face.
I will leave in the middle what that could mean, just that it didn’t really look like I wanted to have that kind of relationship.
The conversation stopped shortly after that.
She got what she wanted.
I don’t know if that is something nice to have.
I wasn’t feeling off guard when she stood there next to him, because I was just having a conversation.
Things people do at a party.
There was nothing going on.
I guess, I was a danger to this girl, to whatever they were having.
If that is a love relationship is a question to me.
For some reason she felt she needed to do that.
Of course I understood the message.
It made me later think about it and ask that question to myself.
‘Is that a love relationship?’
That this girl felt the need to do that and the guy couldn’t even have a conversation.
Honestly, I believe it had nothing to do with it.
Just some insecurity of that person.
Perhaps even both.
Perhaps something happened before with them and this was her way of handling that.
Not something particular they agreed on, but just to make sure they wouldn’t have to go over that again.
I guess this is what it was saying to me.
It was just the epiphany where they gave me an insight of their relationship.
It made me think, is this a way we have come to agree on, to accept that kind of behavior.
That women do that. Whatever that is.
Who invented that?
Who’s responsible for it?
Or is it just a lack in themselves, this behavior is covering?
Whatever it is, I don’t agree with it.
I don’t think this comes from the society we are living in, but due to the behavior of those men and women, who are taking a form of liberty.
Thinking they can do whatever they want.
Either something wild inside of them they are unable to tame or just that they can do that to have some sort of control.
To me it is the same thing.
If a love relationship is that, then I’d rather keep it close to myself.