The topic that was send to me, to write a story about, although upon my own request (just taking my responsibilty here) is about After Life.
Interesting it is, that topic.
I have to say that.
It really is.
So much out there, we don’t know.
Is there life after we die?
And how would it look like?
Just a few questions that I am getting.
But correct me if I am wrong.
Amazed by the world outside.
And what is there to find?
What is my place here on earth?
What am I supposed to be doing here?
Perhaps I am an alien myself?
Could that really be?
Well, it is a good question, my dear.
Frankly, I don’t know.
Just because I don’t know you so well.
So that is an easy answer, I guess.
But don’t be disappointed with what I say.
Honestly I think you are a human.
Because humans want to know what is out there.
I mean aliens want to know about earth, because that is unknown to them.
That makes sense, right.
That is why they visit earth, to see what they can do here and they try to make contact with us.
I don’t know what their reason is for that.
I mean, I am also just a human.
Like yourself.
I do like it here.
Just speaking for myself.
But when I meet one, I will ask it.
“He, what are you doing, here?”
I hope it can speak.
What do you think?
Because otherwise I would just be talking to air.
That would be a bit stupid.
Don’t you think.
So that is all I am getting about that.
But After Life.
Where do people go when they are death?
Is there really a life after?
And what is happening there?
The way I am seeing it, is that there are different realities.
When it comes to death.
I mean, there is heaven and hell.
Some people believe that.
I think myself, I will go there.
Heaven I mean.
Hell I have already experienced.
One day I had a relationship with a narcist.
He thought he could just do whatever he wanted.
Making me cry for no reason.
Lying about everything and turning things around that I would think I was wrong.
Even losing my mind.
Than using it against me, like I was a fool.
He even said bad things behind my back, which I figured out because I knew the girl that he had said those things about me.
We were even already broken up. He just wanted to get all the attention.
He is really a loser.
So yes, hell is not really a burning place like we think.
At least not according to me.
That relationship was a living Hell for me.
To come back to Heaven.
I think I have been there already.
Just by accident, actually.
It is a bit of a funny story.
Eventhough I am saying that myself.
I was standing in front of a gate.
It was gold, at least the way I was seeing it.
It wasn’t that high and I could look through the pilars.
They were also gold, you know.
It felt a bit cloudy, but it wasn’t like I was on a cloud.
I was standing on my two feet.
Like every day.
As far as I can remember, it was just a normal day.
Then all of sudden this man came to me.
He was wearing something white.
But he didn’t have a beard or so.
I mean, it wasn’t God, if you think I spoke to him.
Don’t be silly. Haha.
Anyway, this guy said : “What are you doing here?”
Just for the record, I am not an alien, in case you were thinking that.
I just said : “I am looking for uncondiotional love, thought I could find it here”.
I wasn’t afraid or felt I couldn’t speak.
The man looked at me.
I couldn’t really tell his age.
He wasn’t really young or old.
I also couldn’t tell if he was nice or kind.
It was just what it was, I guess.
Then he said.
“Oh, but you can find that on earth”.
Like it was nothing.
I still can’t believe he said that.
Can you believe it?
And then he just left without saying anything.
The nerve that he just left without saying goodbye.
You know, I think he is just stupid.
So yeah.
That is that story about that one time I went to that golden gate.
I think I was at the entrance of Heaven.
Because in Heaven there is unconditional love.
In case you didn’t know that.
And I think I was just a bit lonely when I went there.
But anyway, apparently it is here on earth.
If you have found it before I did, please tell me, ok.
Perhaps we can share that.
That would be nice I think.
Because honestly I don’t know how it looks or where to find it.
Perhaps it is something you can only feel.
What do you think?
Well, I don’t know.
I am also not looking for anything like that.
But when it comes to After Life, life after death.
I don’t know that place.
I mean I am alive, I am not death.
It can be a happy place, because some people don’t want to live on earth.
They rather want to be dead.
So I guess, that kind of life after dying, would be a nice place.
I think, at least.
I don’t know really, because I don’t want to die in that kind of way.
I am happy to live.
For other people I think it is a sad place, because they don’t want to live without the person that want to be dead.
Sorry, didn’t want to write it down so bluntly.
But I guess you understand what I mean.
My star sign is Sagitarius, it is just something that happens.
Part of who I am.
But perhaps I can make you a promise, that once I am dead, I will tell you what this after life place is to me?
I don’t really know if that is a question, actually.
And then I don’t know if you would understand what I am saying, also.
Yes, that is also a bit problematic.
I don’t know.
Perhaps you need to ask that to someone that is dead already.
I know there are a lot of people dead from the inside, so I guess they can give you a better answer to that.
To me “After Life” has a different meaning.
That it doesn’t mean that we have to be dead as such.
But it can also just be a life, after a life we already have lived.
In a previous life, I mean.
You know, from the old days.
Like past life experiences.
But I will tell that another time.
Perhaps when I see you in real life.
Is that ok for you?
I hope so, it would be nice.
I like to tell stories.
I think you know that already by now, about me.
What I try to say is that the life we are living now, is the life after that life, we once lived.
Perhaps we can talk about that also, once I see you.
I mean, After Life doesn’t have to be, right after we died.
That sounds a bit unknown to me, frankly.
It could also be that we died and came back to live another life, or to complete something that we couldn’t live in our previous life.
I have a lot of those memories.
But I will tell you just the one that is popping up now.
Don’t worry.
It is a memory from when I was a princess.
From an indiginious Tribe.
Not one that has a castle.
Maybe that is why I write all those princess stories, who knows.
I was supposed to take the ‘throne’ one day.
That is not what it is called, but I have no better word for it.
My father was the head of the Tribe.
I was his only daughter.
My mother died when giving birth to me.
Those things happened in these days and sometimes happen still in certain circumstances.
But nothing for you to be afraid of.
Or to worry about.
About that Tribe.
We were invaded one day and I was able to get out.
It was a massacre, it was horrible.
Really.
I couldn’t even cry.
It was such a mess.
Almost my whole Tribe died that day.
Sometimes I wonder if those people came back to earth, again.
I am telling it like I didn’t knew my Tribe and that is a bit true.
Telling this from my memory, I have now.
Perhaps I needed to come back to earth, after that life after I was that princess, to tell this.
So I can find my people, that once lived with me in that same Tribe.
Honestly, I would be happy to meet them.
I mean we are one of a kind.
I hope they are also nice.
But when I was living that life, I was quiet young and was living freely.
Basically minding my own business.
Something I am still doing now.
When you know me, you know I am not kidding or joking.
But I am funny.
Haha.
Although sometimes I am the only one that thinks I am.
Sorry, not sorry.
Perhaps the people from that Tribe wouldn’t recognize me, because they are too afraid after they had that death experience.
I can imagine that.
Dying unexpected can cause a trauma.
I know from experience.
I had to heal a few of those too.
Nothing funny at all.
That is serious business, you know.
An idea I am having is that I can help my people to overcome those past life death trauma, when they died in that massacre.
I didn’t see much of that.
Just a lot of blood and I remember I ran away, very fast on my two bare feet.
I still like to do that, at least on summer days.
Walking on my bare feet.
I also did that in winter times, but that is too cold for me.
I am happy I have 2 pairs of warm slippers.
The brand is not that important.
But I remember when those murders happend, I saw a boat.
I just took it and peddled untill I nearly died and found a place in the city, to live.
I mean, then I didn’t knew that it was a city.
But with the brains that I have now, I can understand it was a city.
I was able to live there for a while, but eventually died.
Also.
I mean, sometimes that just happens.
Nothing wrong with that.
However, I think I still need to fullfill that destiny.
Taking over my fathers place.
He also died that day.
In that massacre.
Perhaps he came back to earth also.
I would definitely recognize him.
Because my father in this life, commited suicide.
Just another form of death.
Anyway.
I don’t know what I am trying to say with this.
Just that if he would be on earth now and would be alive still, I would know who he is.
That sounds lovely to me.
I mean, I am missing a father figure in my life.
Why not continue on something that died in a past life and we were not able to say goodbye at all.
To me that is a bit sad.
Maybe that is why I was so angry at this guy with his white outfit, that said to me that unconditional love is on earth, and then just left without saying anything.
I still can’t believe that.
The only thing I am thinking about now, is that I can’t remember my name when I was living in that Tribe.
I mean princess sounds a bit weird, when you live in a Tribe right?
Maybe my father can tell me that.
At least if he came back to earth.
Well, anyway.
Maybe it isn’t that important.
But in this life, my name is Lakshmi.
Nice to meet you.
Hope you liked the story.
Oh, and if you recognize yourself in this story, please let me know.
Maybe we belonged to the same Tribe.
That would be funny.
I don’t know what we would be doing.
But we’ll figure something out.
Hope the sun shines that day, that would be nice.
See you, bye!
Oh, and to give you an answer if there is Love in After Life?
Sorry, for this weird sentence.
I guess, I need to figure that just out in this life.
I am glad I have my love journal, this journey of love.
Perhaps I can understand it better, when continue writing about Love and see what happens next?
I hope you enjoyed my story and you can live with all the answers I gave.